“Describe one habit that brings you joy.”

Considering this writing prompt, which surprisingly caught my attention despite my initial hesitation toward these writing exercises, I’m intrigued by how simple questions can unveil the complexities of our thinking. These prompts, though straightforward, reveal holes in my ability to think of the most basic things when I am caught off guard. I decided that I am up for the challenge.

You would assume that answering the question, ‘Describe a habit that brings you joy,’ would be easy. Yet, I found myself grappling with this task for a week. During conversations with a friend who’s also my therapist, the idea of journaling has came up repeatedly over the years. While I’m drawn to the concept, I know my tendency to lose interest over time, so I brushed it aside. Last week, I brought up my struggle with this question. My friend asked it aloud, and I was momentarily stumped again—like a deer caught in headlights, unable to respond. It’s oddly reminiscent of the ‘freeze’ response during trauma.

This contemplation uncovers my discomfort with new thoughts, triggering a surge of panic that hampers my thinking in uncharted territory. My therapist noted joy-inducing habits: losing myself in a book, family time, and relishing nature’s sounds without distractions. One habit I thoroughly enjoy is mentally wandering through hopeful destinations. I can picture sitting peacefully, observing, lost in thought while being present.

The answer is there, abundant yet elusive. Among many things, travel brings me joy, but it’s more than a habit; it’s a passion. In between actual trips, I find joy in virtually exploring places. Pictures and descriptions transport me, and I can imagine the feel of the air and the ground beneath my feet. I’m momentarily present in these imagined scenes. I can imagine how I would be able to use that trip as a place I can mentally go back to when I am day dreaming or need a peaceful retreat from my own busy and chaotic mind.

This insight could propel personal growth—a chance to confront my unease with the unfamiliar and enhance my awareness of response patterns. It might help me be more present, a realm I struggle with when things become uncomfortable or seemingly out of my grasp. This introspection could reshape how I think. Perhaps, indeed, it’s the key to unlocking new growth ❤